Taut, muscular and animal, these poems explore motherhood and body identity within the context of baby loss, when there is no rainbow baby to add closure to the narrative. When I Think of My Body as a Horsecentres around the experience of infertility and baby loss with a wider focus on body ownership and motherhood. The poems follow a totemic animal theme rooted in nature through which the poet explores her own experience of the loss of her daughter, an IVF baby, during an emergency c-section in 2010. The poems in When I Think of My Body as a Horse are about trauma, but they are also about recovery and the powerful, animal instincts that surround the act of creating a family, and how this is absorbed and accepted as part of a wider narrative when there is no rainbow baby to add closure to the trauma of loss.